Out of practice

---> Currently on repeat:Russian Roulette-Rhianna<---

Haha so its been a while since I've posted any thing because I was temporarily without internet but IM BACK, but I've decided to take things slow until I'm back in the swing of things. So today I give you my Monday Poll
Lets begin =]

. Mood - Negative
Hometown: Cleveland
Parents Still Together?: No
Siblings: 1 sis, 3 bros
Orientation: straight
APPEARANCE
Hair Color: Blk
Eye Color: brown
Glasses/Contacts/None?: Glasses
LIKES/DISLIKES
Favorite Color: Orange
Worst Color: Brown
Favorite Number: 4s
Favorite Food: Cereal
Worst Food: Peas
Favorite Junk Food: Chocolate
Worst Junk Food: idk
Favorite Restaurant: Kraker barrel
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Chunky Munky
Favorite Alcoholic Drink: green apple Smirnoff
Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink: Lipton Citrus Green Tea
Favorite Genre of Music: Hip Hop

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Enjoy The Little In site On Me?? I Hope So

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Newest Poem Of Mine || READ IT

----> Listening To: Spaceship- Kanye West <----

Asphalt Covered Strawberries
Cookies And Screams
In This Beautiful Disaster Of A Life
I Take The Nightmares With The Dreams
Excruciating Happiness
And All The Terrible Things
Reek Havoc On My Liveliness
And Rips My Soul From Its Seems
Sand Paper Bandages
Cover Emotional Wounds
While Poison Flavored Medicine
Makes Me High As The Moon
Looking Down On Sweet Depression
And Facing Sour Hope
I Posses The Helpless Power
That Lets Me Cope

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The Season For Screams

---->Press Play: Consequence-Kanye West<----

||ITS OCTOBER ||
It's Time For Ghouls And Goblin
Thrills And Chills >={

The 1st Was My Little Cousin Miracle's Birthday. Happy 8th Birthday Miracel!!
Later On This Month... On The 26th My Niece Danaija Will Be 7 =]
Ahh And Of Course HALLOWEEN *Muhaahaahaaa* lol lol
So In Order To Be Festive And Get My Blog In The Mood I Thought I'd Share A Childhood Halloween Song I Learned At School

::::: The Ghost Of John::::
[Sung In A Round]

Have you seen the ghost of John?
Long white bones with the skin all gone
Oooh, Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Oooh, Oh Oh Oh Oh
Wouldn't it be chilly with no skin on

Haha This Song Is Forever Embedded Into My Brain I Don't Think I'll Ever Forget It. I Kinda Wish I Was Still Young Enough To Feel The Magic Of Halloween Still.... Ah Memories.
I Still Remember My Costumes Every Year Since Age4..Gotta Love Selective Memory=]

There Was The Pink Power Ranger When I Was Four
The Yellow Power Ranger When I Was Five
The Angel When I Was Six
Then I Was A Tootsie Roll For Three Years Straight [Best Candy Getting Costume Hands Down]
Then I Was A "Vampiertres" {Last Minute Costume} When I Was Ten
When I Was Eleven I Was Permitted To Go Alone =0 So I Chose To Be A Witch/Vampire (Weird Now That I Think Back On It)
At Twelve I Went To My First Halloween Party And Went As A Witch {Decked Out In Make Up And A Broom}
At Thirteen I Helped My Sister With My 2Year Old Nephew {Bat} && 1Year Old Niece {Cat} So Me And Her Just Stopped By The Drug Store And Bought Wigs Hers Was Electric Pink Mine Neon Blue lol
And Finally At Fourteen I Decided I Was Too Old And Gave It Up =[

Good Times Good Times =]

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I'm Here To Drop Some Knowlege

---->Listening To:Theres Hope && Video-India Arie<----

So I Tuned Into Oprah Today And What Do I See?? Her And Chris Rock Talking About "Good Hair" Not Just Black Women And Their Weaves And Perms But White Women With Their Dye Blond Hair.

I Personally Feel Like It's A Good Topic To Touch On It Deff Effects A Lot Of People. What Really Shocked Me Though Is When They Spoke About A PreK Aged Girl Who Didn't Like Her Hair Because It Didn't "Go Down" Like All The Other Kids In Her Class. That To Me Is Way To Young For Any Girl To Be Unhappy With Her Self Image WoW.

At The Same Time The Grown Women Where Off The Hook Too ,Now I Didn't See The Whole Show But A White Woman Said She Felt More "Striking" As A Blonde Than As An Auburn *WTF* But Chris And Oprah Made A Good Point, How Could She Feel More Striking When She Looks Like Everyone Else??? Solange Knowles Was On There Talking About Why She Cut Her Hair And She Said She Got Her First Perm At Age 4 =0 Now Thats Crazy. She Also Spoke On How She Would Never Feel As Pretty In Between Weaves And Thats Why She Cut Her Hair To "Free Herself" From Those Feelings.

Another Shocking Story Was About Women And Girls In India Who Cut Their Hair BALD As Part Of A Religious Ceremony Honoring Their Gods. The Hair Is Cut At Their Place Of Worship But The Church Then Sells Their Hair To The Weave Industry WOW WOW WOW. Those Women Don't Even Know The Worth Of Their Hair Or Whats Being Done To It After Its Shaved Off. I Wonder If They Knew Would It Change Their Views On It?

I Myself Have Been Getting Relaxers Since I Was About 7 or 8 And I Have Had A Few Weaves And Fake Pony Tails But The Only Time I've Done It For The Looks Was For My Graduation Pictures And My Prom. I Perm My Hair Not Because Of Looks But Because Its SOOOO Much More Easier To Handel, Especially For Me Because I Have A Hard Time Doing/Styling My Hair, Like Just Flat Ironing My Hair Is A Hassle For Me To Do On My Own. I Will Say I Do Have Issues With Short Hair I Hate To See Myself With Short Hair To Me It Makes My Head Look Fatter/Rounder Than It Already Is. Other Than That I Like My Relaxers So That I Can Easily Style My Hair Which For The Most Part Is In A Pony Tail.

The Knowledge
Has Been Dropped

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My Own Private Slumber Party

---->Press Play: Puke-Eminem<----

Yup I'm Up All Late For No Reason At All. It Was Like Super Chilly Cheese Fries Out Side Today We Even Turned The Heat On.

I'm Realizing That So Many Of The Things That Are Important In A 19 Year Olds Life Are Missing ;S From My Life
I Am Jobless,I'm Not In College And I Don't Have A Love Interest {{How Bland Is My Life Huh}}

The Jobless\Schooless Thing I Think People Can Over Look But The Lack Of Love Interest Plus My Lack Of Dating In The Past Has Even My Family Questioning My Orientation Well Verdicts Out People I'm Straight As A -----Limbo Stick----- [haha I'm So Witty]

I Know It's Hard For People To Tell Which Is Why I Don't Get Super Upset About What They Think. Far As They Know I've Only Had One Boy Friend Three Years Ago BUT My Track Record Is Slightly Longer Than That (only a lil)

There Was /D\ When I Was 15|I'd Rather Not Elaborate|
Then Arkene The Official When I Was 16 |only for 2.5 months|
Then /B\ Last Year He Had Lots Of Potential But Wanted A WHOLE LOT {FWB} Just To Be My "Bestie" :s
Oh Yes Let Us Not Forget About Ty My Own Personal Confusion Full Of Potential... To Bad He Only Wants Sex ,,,And Yet I Keep On Seeing/Talking To Him ugh Silly Me

Add Those To The 3 or 4 Guys Who Never Made It Past Phone Calls And I Haven't Done So Bad Really...Have I??
Oh But Back On Topic No One Really Knows About Anyone Other Than D And Arkene [My Family Doesn't Even Know About D]
So Their Confusion About Who/What I Like Is Partly My Fault But I Do Love My Privacy =]
Yess But It Would Be Nice To Move On Past All The Insignificance And On To Something A Little ... More

ANYONE KNOW AN AVAILABLE CHUBBY CHASER??
PLEASE SEND HIM MY WAY ;] LOL

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PS:: I'm Sorry My Punctuation And Grammer SUCK, I'll Work On It.

With Out Rain You Can't Have Rainbows

-->Playing:Butterflies-Michael Jackson&These Words-Natasha Bedingfeild<--

Cold Dark Raining Gloomy Weekend Ugh lol
I Was Up With The Sun Babysitting Saturday And Super Frustrated Yesterday But I Did Get To See My Phatt Phatt ♥ So She Brought A Rainbow Into My Gloom.

I Really Need To Get This Depression Thing Under Control I Most Deff Need To Get The Balls To Go See A Doctor Blahh But Really These Bouts Of Depression Are Really Starting To Take Their Toll On Me.

On Another Note I Figured That I'd Post Another One Of My Old Poems Today So With Out Any Further Ado I Present

Red Room

Awaken By A Rhythmus Thud


I Find Myself


In A Room The Color Of Blood



The Hue Of Rage


It Encloses Me


Like A Barbwire Cage



As The Beat Increases


The Room Crumbles


And Simply Falls To Pieces



Around Me The Derbies Lay


In All The Hues


Of Blacks, Blues And Gray



And Yet Still



I'm Anchored To This One Spot


A Prisoner To This Heart


That The Warden Of Love Forgot

Some Days I Feel Like I'm Amazing With My Words Other Days I Feel Like Such A Wanna Be Poet :S// What Do You Think???

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Always Push Through With A Smile

See Thiss Kidd She's Pretty Darn Great ♥ =]

---->Listening To: Forever-Drake && Just To Get By- Talib Kweli<----

So I Was RUDELY Awaken This Morning By My Sis On The Computer emailing Her "boo" In Texas blahh :{ So I've Been Super Tired All Day Ugh. But On A Brighter Note My Brother Brought Over My Niece Ta'Leah bka my Phatt Phatt ♥ Lubbz That Gurl To Death Yup =]
So I Played TeeTee (thats what my nieces and nephews call me) Even Though I Was Out Of It.

I Talked To My Father To Day oh joy :S Don't Get Me Wrong I Love My Father And We Get Along ... I Guess, But The Older I Get The More Frustrated I Get With Him Its Like I Have No Patients For Him, I Think Its Mainly Because I Grew Up A Daddy's Girl And He Could Do No Wrong But Now At The Age Of 19 I See What Is Fact And I'm A Lil Disappointed He Hasn't Lived Up To My Childish Dreams I See He Makes Mistakes And Has Huge Flaws Just Like Me...So How Can He Tell Me What To Do With My Life When He Didn't Do The Best He Could With His???
Another Thing That Is Rocky In Our Father Daughter Relationship Is That My Father Is Really Out Going Dominant A Leader A Go Getter {{Everything I Hate Myself For Not Being}}
And I'm Shy Reserved Anti-Social A Procrastinator, And Very Passive And He Expects Me To Be More Like Him {{Guess I Haven't Met His Standards Either Huh}}
All And All Our Relationship Isn't As Easy Now That He's not Super Dad And I'm Not Daddy's Lil Girl ...God Will Work It Out I'm Sure.

Heres Something Interesting Today On Facebook I Took A Quiz That Calculated How Long I've Been Alive::: Here Are The Results :::

19 years
0 months
21 days
228 months
? weeks(they got that wrong)
6961 days
167064 hours
10023840 minutes
601430400 seconds
&& 4 leap years
WOW

Pinky Are You Pondering What I'm Pondering?? || Thats A Whole Lotta Numbers ...Makes Me Feel Old LoL|| * End Thoughts Here* Lol

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